Wow. Apparently last week was just the warm-up for the real test, which was this week. It is funny how the lessons we learn on our mats correlate so closely to the lessons that come up in our lives.
On Monday evening I got news that my dad had been admitted to the hospital (across the state). My family insisted that everything was fine and that I should stay put and go to work the next day instead of coming home. I didn’t sleep much that night and was anxious about having a busy day the next day.
I woke up extra early for Mysore practice on Tuesday morning. I didn’t mention anything about my dad to my teacher, but when she noticed I was going through the standing series at snail-speed, she asked what was going on. I told her I was really struggling to focus and was contemplating whether I should visit my dad in the hospital or go to work. Her words have stuck with me all week, “focus on your practice, and the answer will reveal itself.” She was right.
I was able to regain my focus and apparently did so well enough to be given the next pose in the intermediate series, which is Dwi Pada Sirsasana, or both legs behind your head. You probably can imagine how difficult is to balance on your bum with both of your feet behind your head, yes? I imagine this seemingly impossible asana is going to present quite the journey for me. I have no doubt that there are many lessons in store.
I also released my Prep for the Press ebook for purchase on my website this week, which presented challenges of its own. I pretty much knew nothing about selling things on the internet before last Sunday. I spent most of the week confused and overwhelmed, resisting tears. But somehow I figured it out, so you should go buy it here!
My mantra this week has been: Everything will come together when it does. At the end of the day, there are a lot of things that are out of our control. I keep telling myself that it is GOOD that I feel scared. I am learning how to surrender to the universe when it comes to my fears. I will continue to step into the unknown and facing whatever obstacles come my way. Watch me flourish because of it. More next week..
P.s., happy to report that my dad said he feels better than he has felt in years!